it's weekend

Not so weekend lah. Tomorrow I have class at 8. What a nightmare? Tomorrow is Sunday! gahhh!! umm.. and the Test.. I like! haha..

Straight to the point, I went to Padang Besar, Perlis last Wednesday. 

bloody sick face! I got PMS during this time lol!

at Gua Kelam, Perlis

asal muka aku putih sangat?lol

While writing this Terengganu scored the goal for their team! haha! I hate the nervousness! 

Guten Morgen Schmetterling

I just woke up! and the most I miss is someone at Augsburg. aaaaaaaaaa!! I wanna date with you like seriously! lunch together, movie time, like others do. or it was only just a dream.. dream for now lahhh.. I was waiting for you.. a year gonna be okay?

=D

so beautiful.. Subhanallah

I believe that everyone have their own desires towards something.. I have mine too.. yes I want this! indeed! *nak nanges*.. I go around loathing myself whether I deserve it or not.. I know I have to be more than optimistic or 'tawaddu' to be that particular person.. Self internal goes your physical appearances. Get what I mean? beauty and attitudes comes together. And it's not as easy as you think. But believe me, this is the most thing I want for me..

credit- FB fanpage of Linda Hashim

I really wanna wear THIS!

When I'm wearing the tudung I'm not just wear the tudung.. I wanna wear it properly with the nice clothes of mine. Nice clothes here means you really covered by that clothes! not jarang sana sini or not ketat sana sini! I love black jubah in the picture above.. lebih manis kan?

Allah bless me <3

Anyways, I've been so busy getting my life on track these past few days. That's the cause of my umm...... I have to study now.. TEST waiting for me next week.. Am a dead meat!

p/s : Dear Jack, thank you for what you really doing for me. =D

Can't Take my eyes of you!

-credit to FB fanpage of Istanbul Aku Datang-

I'm writing a story about my life. And I want to describe this girl in such a way, that makes it seem like she's the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. She was like a precious jewel, rare and beautiful. I do adore her, beautiful Lisa Surihani. nama pun dah lawa kan? 

Lucky her.. =D Actually, cantik glasses dia kan?muahahaha..

..

I Miss You.. 

....

I'm all alone now..  and It's started with this.. I've send him a text messages.. then he call me.. with the slow voice.. then he coughing.. I found it hard.. hard to hear that.. he's not feeling well.

all this while, I just need this my dear..

I have more than just nothing to talk with you.. I have my billions words to throw out! but I'm sad why I can do that.

I really need you to be with me.. if not to lean on your shoulder or you put your arms around me, unless I have YOU with me! do you understand?

bla bla T_T

What's wrong with me. I have no idea.*blame my emotion* This self-moronic is fucking kills me now! 
I can't control my self for being like that. And just now I've make him angry.. I just spoiled our night! *=( poor me* I hate myself!everything!everyone! dot!

stay up

It's Saturday. the last day for my holiday this week.. and there's lotsa task waiting for me heartlessly next week! presentation, quizzes.. Ya Allah.. bless me and make me strong. 

-positivethought-

hell yeah!

we're having so much time last night! but I'm the one who feeling so tired, sleepy and yarh! I slept all over the night.*rolling eyes* and pity my friend, Angah.. she lose her purse.. It's might be dropouts when we're in the cinema. I hope they can fix it today as everything will be okay and sorry I can't follow them.. ahaaa.. we'd watched The Three Musketeer. not bad! 3 over 5 stars I can give. I'd admired the beautiful young lady named Constance Bonacieux in the movie. so pretty and so supermodel! =D or her real name Gabriella Wilde.*please google by yourself*

and dear Jack, after you call me last night, I'm being so emotional deeply in my heart. I miss to hang out with you.. I miss to lean at your shoulder when we're in the car. you're driving and I can't stop talking and make you smile.. <3

-count the days-

what a hectic day!

Today is Monday. and my class at 10 until 6! gah! I'm stuck in the Campus for 8 hours and I'm so tired! believe me! Sometimes this thing make feel like Oh God I'm so over this! give me back my life.


Then, when I think more and more.. what else to do? you will miss this someday. ouh ya! while waiting for the bus to take us home, I found this.. it's so beautiful =D there's an egg in the nest.. 

-XOXO-

Self Improvement

I believe with self determination. I'm trying to be the positive person as I can. what else? optimist, realistic.. Dear Jack,,


I want you to know that I value what we have right now, and more than anything, I want you to be comfortable or whatever that I mean! I'm sorry for making you feel like I was putting you on the spot. that wasn't what I'm trying to do. 


But I can't resist the other things that may come soon or maybe someday. Let us pray for so that it's will always be good and smooth..


-CanYouHearMyCall?-

I can't hardly stay sane! pathetic and paranoid!

Dear Jack,


Believe me, there's no more feeling that can describe me now.. MIX FEELING.. Gosh! this feeling is so overwhelming plus the fact that I'm really sad.


I'm realize everything.. I'm sorry for abandoning you.. being so ignorance. admit that's my weakness. that's really me. I miss you. what else that I can do? and I hate when I miss you! I hate for not being able to have you all for myself. I HATE MYSELF for always doing mistake! Imma trouble-maker.. ='|.. like now.. I'm the useless one..


-HearMeNow- <3

I'm a big girl

I'm so happy today.. as Ayah and Emak visit me here*at this creepy place*. What else will make me happy?and also you people I bet you will be happy too. They will go to Perak tomorrow to visit our relatives there and also to see our old house.


I realize, the bigger me, I feel far apart from my parents. The distance of course! as I'd currently stay at Kedah that's hundreds miles from my home at Pahang to pursue my degree. The truth is the internal feeling that make me feel there is a gap between us. I don't know why.. I miss my childhood time like freaking seriously <3.


Ayah kiss my cheeks and I'm so happy =D.. Emak too! I miss my mom's cooks. ouh I wanna cry now. can I?


-BIG GIRL DON'T CRY-

hello it's weekends!

I woke up early in this morning.. why I said it's early? because today is weekend baby. I supposedly wake up at 12 or 4 as well as it's PM. Morning is hectic! we'd settled the 'ulat-ulat' from the garbage and it's like euuwwwww! I hate 'ulat sampah'!


I have too many assignments to finish. believe or not we're only in the second weeks and we'd received a bunch of tasks! Lecturers know that we're the multi-tasker perhaps. This second semester made me exhausted.. I need to get rid myself from any matters that related to the social site unless I can't finish my assignment before next week.


-XOXO-

FEAR

*drools*

I never let it go as this is the permanently fear since my elementary school time..

When I'm doing Foundation in Law.. finally, this fear was gone.. and I can smile..

But,*rolling eyes*as I'm pursuing my degree.. this obstacles*for me* just like ... oh! Welcome home Calculation! I love you till death!*pffttt*

-hope everything run smoothly-

*look at my NEW pencil case =D and oh! the plain foolscap paper-.-*